Lies, Trust, Help, Appreciate, Left

The Girl I thought I Could Tell Her Everything

I thought she's the one i could tell everything.. good , bad, sad, happy.. anything.. but.. I was wrong . She's not the one.. not anymore . She changed a lot.. She told me she hate him.. but now she's so close with him. even closer than me . She said if i'm not there .. she won't have any mood to play, she won't have any fun. But what happened?! I'm not trying to say she can't have new friends.. who she wants to have as a friend is not a thing i care about .. is that.. who am i to her now .. i keep thinking . still best friends? friends? or stranger maybe.. or maybe we never were best friends.. it's just me .. thinking her as my best friend .. i thought so. Few days ago, we have an outing .. with HER NEW group. the moment she told me they're going too .. I was thinking .. ''should i go? would it be boring if i go? should i or should i not ? '' i kept thinking over and over again . In the end, i decided to go .. I thought maybe i could blend in . but .. I was wrong . I went there.. but it felt like .. i'm not even there .. cause they're having their talk .. and i'm just there standing.. alone . I tried to talk .. but i can't find a way to . cause what they're talking about is THE STUPID !@#$%^&* TRIP. I'm not there . I don't understand a thing they're talking about . It's been so long .. why the hell do they still wanna talk about it .. okay.. maybe it's SO SO SO FUN that they still can't forget about it , but PLEASE .. talk about it when I'm not there or those other people that didn't went are not there . Respect others please. And she always says that he likes me. like WT* ?! (me to tell her : '' HE ASKED YOU TO HELP HIM BUT YOU PUSHED HIM AWAY AND ASK HIM TO FIND ME FOR HELP WHEN YOU CAN HELP HIM ! AND THEN PLAY TRICKS ON ME?! IF YOU !@#$%^&* LIKE HIM , TAKE HIM AWAY ! DON'T !@#$%^&* SAY HE LIKES ME ! AND I KNOW YOU REALLY LIKE HIM .. EVERYONE CAN SEE IT ! DON'T !@#$%^&* PLAY TRICKS ON ME ! CAUSE I DON'T !@#$%^&* LIKE HIM ! AND STOP SAYING THAT WHO HE LIKES ! IF YOU LIKE HIM , TELL HIM ! NOT PUSHING HIM TO OTHER GIRLS ! STOP BEING SO FAKE ! I KNOW WHO I LIKE AND IT'S NOT HIM! !@#$%^&* YOU ! '' ) - end -

The Boy I Helped And Thought Would Appreciate It

I helped him a lot a lot A LOT . The projects, the essays, the transport problems, the works, almost everything . He never say thanks .. he doesn't appreciate it. He helped me .. once . I appreciate it A LOT and thank him . Cause i know .. if he don't help me . I won't be able to pass it up. There's a  lot of times.. i thought maybe if i do more .. they'll appreciate it? .. but NO . that's not gonna happen . I always asked myself  ''is it valuable to help him , to help them. ? '' ''if i don't help them , will they hate me? '' I'm scared.. i don't want to lose any friends . I asked my mom for her opinion sometimes.. she said that they're just using me .. at first i don't felt like that . . cause i treat them as my friends .. i would try my best to help them everytime.. but then .. i started to think if my mom was right .. and now i think my mom was right . My sister always say that i'm too easy to be bullied. . that i don't know how to refuse to help others..

There was once I helped a bunch of people by lending them my book. cause they didn't !$%^&* do their homework. i shouldn't have cared but that teacher was horribly scary . so i have to borrow them - - . After a few days or maybe weeks . The teacher scolded cause everyone's answer is like shit and almost all the same. AND THEN THEY !@#$%^&* BLAME ME?!!!! BUT THEY DIDN'T GET SCOLDED BY THE TEACHER.. NOT EVEN ONE ..I'M THE ONE BEING SCOLDED . i'm ok with it.. cause that answer was really stupid . BUT THEY BLAMED ME ! HOW CAN THEY BLAME ME ! I BORROWED THEM BECAUSE THEY'RE MY FRIENDS AND I DON'T WANT THEM TO GET INTO TROUBLE FOR NOT FINISHING THEIR WORK! BUT THEY BLAME ME BEACUSE I WROTE A STUPID ANSWER!? (me to tell them: IF YOU GUYS ARE SO SMART TO GET IT RIGHT , WHY NOT FINISH IT UP BY YOURSELVES !? I'M JUST BEING HELPFUL TO HELP YOU GUYS ! YOU GUYS DIDN'T APPRECIATE IT AND STILL BLAME ME?! EAT SHIT ! p.s : I really almost cried that time - - . wts.. and now i swear to God i will never help them anymore unless it is a MUST help thing . I WILL NEVER HELP THEM SO EASILY ANYMORE . I CAN'T LET THEM TAKE IT FOR GRANTED . - end -

The Boy Who Said He'll Never Forget Me

He said he won't .. but he forgot about me . lies.. - end -

few more days .. I don't know whether i should go or not .. it's THEIR group again ...... but still they are some that are not in THAT group . maybe i should go . eat and talk to the NOT THAT GROUP people. :)

yes.. i cried while typing this .. yes i did... ...

MAMA 2013

MAMA 2013 . Not bad. But i like last year's one more than this year's . cause this year alot of them did not attend. Especially SHINee :/ .. but at least they got an award . XD hehehe . SNSD did not attend too .. only SeoHyo couple attended . F(x) , TeenTop, B2ST and so on did not attend too .

At first i thought that SHINee won't attend .. and even when they won something they can't get the award cause they didn't attend MAMA . BUT ended up they still got it . :D YAY !!! HAHAHAAHHA . Before MAMA 2013's red carpet , we SHAWOLS keep tweeting saying that SHINee would attend , SHINee gonna give us a surprise and suddenly appear on MAMA , SHINee being the special guest, SHINee entering MAMA's stage using james bond style and all those stuff . All we tweeted is just straight to one point .. WE WANT SHINee TO ATTEND MAMA 2013 . SHINee WORLD IS UNITED . :) . before the red carpet, that pup tweeted .. saying that he's at home watching TV .. and we SHAWOLS keep giving ourselves hope saying that he saw our tweets and purposely trick us saying that he's at home .. Then he tweeted again saying that he won some stylish stuff thingy during his school days. AND WE SHAWOLS trying to calm ourselves ssaying that it must be SHINee's plan to trick us . so we waited . ..

Then suddenly INSTAGRAM . . BOOM ! there goes a pic of Bummie having music practice . THAT's when we SHAWOLS have no more hope to see them on MAMA :'D ..... BUT THEN THEY GOT THEIR AWARD . SO OUR MOOD IS BACK UP :DDDD mehehehe . THEN AWESOME BIG BANG PERFORMANCE . CRAYON POP with YLVIS . WHAT DOES THE FOX SAYS !? :DDDD . Ylvis even dance to crayon pop's ''bar bar bar'' . xD . sooooooo . the fox says bar bar bar . XD ahhaha . OWH OWH OWH !!! and Kookie and Mong Ji also attended the MAMA 2013 . MONG JI IS SO DAMN PWEEEEEETYYYYYYYYYYYY :3 . hehe . when both of them speak chinese.. it's so damn cute xDD . And EXO's XiuMin is also so damn cute . When GD is having his solo performance, XiuMin's expression is like '' wahhh ~ so awesome '' . xDD . Pika face :3 . <3 . at the end of MAMA 2013 . they also had a pillow fight XD hahah.

The results :
Best new Male artist : Roy Kim
Best new Female artist: Crayon PopBest Male artist : G-DragonBest Female artist : Lee hyoRiBest Male Group : INFINITEBest Female Group : SNSDBest dance Performance (Male Solo) :G-DragonBest dance Performance (Female Solo) : CLBest dance Performance (Male Group) : SHINeeBest dance Performance (Female Group): SISTARBest Vocal Performance (Male): Lee SeungGiBest Vocal Performance (Female): AileeBest Band Performance: Busker BuskerBest Rap Performance: Dynamic DuoNISSAN JUKE Best Music Video : G-DragonBest Original Soundtrack : Master's Sun OSTArtist Of the Year : G-DragonBC- UNIONPay Song of the year : Cho YongPilSONY MDR Worldwide Performer : INFINITEAlbum of the year : EXO (XOXO)

GD won 4 awards. Album of the year is EXO :DD . GRATS . bet SHINee is at home cheering for their juniors when they get the award XD . MAMA 2013 ! JJANG !! 



ps : pup = JongHyun , Bummie = Key

Eye Of Tiger?

Eye of tiger. some people has it. Not that they have it like their eyes are tiger's eyes . It's like when people look at them in the eye. you can feel the ''power'' inside . A strong feeling . They may not look strong, but they're strong inside . If you piss them off.. hah .. you're so gonna die. ps : so don't !@#$%^&* piss them off :3 .

They're not the mean type. They're the nice type. Nice people don't bully people or anything, but ..

Found this pic yesterday . It really does tells what i want to say . HAH . xD . when people don't listen and pisses you off ? this is whats gonna happen.

 A small rabbit can kill a wolf . yep . so true :3

Ever heard of the song ''ROAR''? It's by Katy Perry . Go check it out : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CevxZvSJLk8 . :D heh . 

By the way , Katy Perry's new song's MV is also out since yesterday. ''Unconditionally'' . Check it out if interested : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XjwZAa2EjKA . teehee :3

I've got the eye of the tiger . ROAR ~ !!

I'm Back ~ !

Thought of starting to blog again. Yep , and here I am, back to blogging :3 . 

Reason to start blogging again : 

• Bored
• Bored
• Bored
• Something bothering me
• Bored 
• SOMEONE met SOMEONE and forgot about me
• Someone having SPM
• Invisible
• Bored

Owhkay.. so ya . most of it is that I'm bored . :'D . Been spending my holiday at home .. eating, sleeping, watching TV, playing noob games . HAH noob games . ( Yay! for noob games :'D ) .

Lately someone met some new friends . Ya . totally forgot about me at that time . Thought of me but don't !@#$%^&*-ing talk to me . Talk to me but like not wanting to . And of course all the other guys followed.. I talk = no talk . Am I not loud enough? Am I invisible to you all? OR IS IT THAT YOU GUYS BECAME DEAF AND BLIND AFTER THE TRIP . I thought so . - - . Please !@#$%^&*-ing give some respect to others while they're talking .

urgh ... - - kays . chills .
Owhkay and I've also decided to blog with each post at least one picture . :) teehee .